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Re: Aimee's Initiate Journal/Force Vision/There is emotion yet peace
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Yesterday I did a cleansing and lit some incense i got which smelled really yummy. I've been working through a lot and letting go of what does not serve me to as we have said to walk in my truest alignment. I felt off and my mental space started to feel weird which usually it means something is happening to me. My wards in my house are very strong and usually if something gets in it's a lesson from the force.
I felt drained and for the past few days my sleep has been light even thoughts like "this is not me." as thoughts or voices appeared. I am a telepath and so on occasion i deal with psyche attacks or other sorts things like random bursts of activity. Experiencing others while in my sleep which usually happens when im feeling ill. Feverish lately which leaning on the force to protect me yet sometimes i can't always do that for i like to solve the problem on my own.
Anyways after doing the ritual and doing a self ritual as i chose to continue my studies/training to becoming a jedi knight. The force guided me to this meditation which i cried for i felt something lift out of me then ripply energy. Then pain for well i carry lots of pain that again working through to heal, forgive constantly, and work on transformation for a better reality. I've struggled alone well i was never alone yet things i hide or work through on my own are coming out at the seams. Working on them alone was helpful yet now it's like connecting with others for some reason brings out some other stuff.
Family all i can say is supposed to be helpful, nurturing and other things that i jsut did not get which i know made me stronger. Made me learn to heal myself, forgive myself and others, empower myself and take my power back for then i can truly rise go on my next phase in training. As an artist being told i cannot be me while watching my siblings do what they loved hurt me for sure. All i can say is parents are psychos which gods i grow tall curling my lip in disgust. I don't even feel sorry anymore for speaking up or opening up yet mostly it's just my burden to carry. Or release to the force and changing my name to Tauriel legally which again putting me in my world.
I'm going away somewhere and know a shift of opportunity will get me out of vampire colorado. Yet now i feel it's a struggle and fight for power which i just want to be me without anyone clawing or me or lowering my vibes to keep me under. Like my body grows warm and the heavans roar a horn blows for the force feels me which idk if that's good or bad roars. I work with source energy and stuff so yah haha force i see in different perspectives.
Last night i was attacked by an energy vampire and this was my trial i realized something must be draining me. Which i was going to where is this coming from and how or when did it attach. I felt it a bit ago and recently started to suck more on my energy when i was working through some pain. Also letting others walk all over me and being love i feel may have let me be seen as weak yet i am not.
I just don't go around fighting every person who takes my energy and usally all it takes is a warning. Yet this was in my sleep and my mind it was a hard experience. My mind was not my mind and here is how things can work...starts by energy drain/circumstances in life/mood drops/body changes (for me at least)/sleep deprivation/mental state and thoughts/questioning of sanity and fear or things usually not there ramping up which is an emotional energy vampire. So i know when to look out for signs also for me i can see energy so ripply dark illusion energy is a sign. I felt dark things circling around me after doing the saging which makes me question the guy to whom i bought this from. Was in denver after all and that is a vampiric place which i may just ground asking mother earth to help purify the sage.
Then do the same or else i give it to her removing the strings to give what was given to me back unto the earth. We'll just see though and i feel like crap since i have not slept in awhile. It was back in head which fear is usually there so i fought that amidst trying to sleep. Eventually i asked for the angels there seems to have been more then one for i felt a few. Gross yep great now i can get to but kicking them too for i am mad yet choose to send them out. For they are no longer welcome which my energy and head space becomes clearer to me as i banish cutting the cords.
My body keeps popping and energy is released which today may be a day of rest while letting all of this out just letting the force carry me today. I have had experience with these energies before and i feel nauseous which can happen when body releases toxins/energies.
All of this represents me rising as a daughter of the force which i've always been yet calling myself a jedi. Seeing the cosmic jedi within and was debating on consular with guardian for i am a warrior resonating with qui quonn jinn. Revan fascinated me and was taught by someone named Revan Filiacksdeus which pardon my spelling yet he spoke to me about the universe. Just in the language of the way which for example The violet Path taught me about the violet ray which is the ability to transmute.
Today and last night was a strong force battle which im exhausted haha i am super sleepy, wary and bags under my eyes. I am near the fire place and in an public area with a sweatshirt that has a hood. i may rest for a bit and close my eyes for i did not sleep that much. I feel like ive been through a blender and my body aches like i was kicked or thrown around. Energy was manipulated which that makes sense why i felt my energy swirling around which was not me.
May i add that is not fun to deal with grrrr yet i choose to continue with this trial which is something i know i needed. To deal with an attacker energetically to speak and defend keeping my calm literally used the mantra last night. Be water and was able to push them back for a bit sinking into sleep yet out of it then back in. Man it was like mental torture which to be honest i am used to which my mind can just re calibrate itself.
I will go forward now and see a arena where i must battle someone which boo yet fine i kind of look forward to this.
I have had a stick that represents a katana which dudes that was super cool. Has a curved handle and not a perfect straight stick like that of a katana yet became my training saber. Later embodied my katana which idk being reunited with my energy was super cool. I even channeled some inner aurebesh or something which i learned that was a language. Never heard of it until i showed it to someone..i never saw that so im wondering why or how. I named it light harbinger which i started to train with for a bit then got a light saber which later became known as light bringer.
Both are inspired upon certain characteristics of me and blue of course was my first color. Still is for i see a guardian and consular within yet starts as a guardian. Consular is the diplomat within and teacher while being a very strong warrior spiritually. Martial arts i practice here or there and going to get around to taking classes eventually. I practice at home though and feels like a dance which idk it comes naturally to my flow. It's really funny and yet when it comes to sparring i intentionally miss.
Even at my first tsl meeting i hit yet idk it felt weird to me for there's no reason to hit. I felt off about it and the person is like hit me doing a cadence of zones to hit. Somehow i blocked myself and idk it's weird for i remember war/loss. A chance to smack someone with a saber yet when it came to it i backed down which there is something there that eventually i'll understand. I am too nice lol and this is where i think sometimes i am too much of a jedi. Maybe i just need motivation and sparring where i have to block otherwise it hurts idk. I think realistically and i freeze up yet don't mind flowing through it. I get inside my own head....if that is not obvious lol yet just a part of the journey.
I also notice some of the martial arts teachers or masters, senseis, shihans make it hard to learn from. There was a shihan i liked to learn from and for once a teacher i liked learning from. Force will send a teacher who will be able to work with my energy to work on the martial art. I feel him somewhere out there for he will be well versed in and i want to learn many arts which will make me a fighter with some variety.
I like the idea of wing chun, kung fu, have done some taekwando which the snappy kicks add power, and karate i liked and continuing lessons down at karate do kan. There is an energy exchange available to me which im grateful for.
Pardon my odd formatting today and recovering/recharging also felt a pull to type on here. For i am not alone and going to go rest now knowing im a light facing some dark things yet i'll be okay. https://soundcloud.com/marya-stark/unstoppable-joy

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Greetings Aimee San Bows.
If you are sparing in any Art it is not the winning that matters what it means is your technique at that time was accurate. It is said that a Samurai would win first then strike.It also seems to me that you have an awful lot going n in your mind. Munen Mushin no thought no mind be clear in all things. Practice emptiness.
If you wish to have a go. I did post some Kata regarding Sabre on the Jedi Guardian section.Not sure if you will be able to access it until you become an apprentice.
Have a peaceful weekend :)

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I couldn't have said it half as well mikedoshi.

Empty the monkey brain of cludder and the rest will become clear. Start with an awareness meditation. Watch your thoughts travel by but do not ínteract with them. Just let them empty out of your mind by flowing through. It's hard at first but it will get easier.

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Too much pain...so many screaming and yet force is here with me as i work through internal stuff. So much that external sources used to be drawn in yet now i say nope knowing i can protect myself. I have to and i'm done letting energies walk all over me which brings the warrior into empowerment.
Humph finally the force says which i roll my eyes which then force laughs chuckling softly. Oh we banter and i love the force lol for the source is here with me. False ashla and false bogans i understand that reality now and why i felt there was some odd vibes coming from the source.
He is not a destroyer yet a creator and while the lord not the god of the three or the son i think is the lord. Is the liar, deceitful moron who yes i am at war against also i am mad yet all life is sacred which we need him. Well we let him live for it's not time yet to spiritually let him go bye bye. Eh yes there is bible stuff in here yet i speak away from the bible for a lot of that is lies to me personally. Did you know there was no slaves...i know i know if i lost you then oh well. Also it's okay to disagree and not hating on your perception yet i will speak mine.
There were no slaves yet hints at the enslavement of humanity yet regardless i found the tid bits of knowledge, or common sense intriguing. The truth is what i seek and found it which the force is revealing to me in addition i am an ancient soul. Metaphysical speak there and now to force speak which is mainly focused on force sensativity.
Way sensitive already...the more i grow the more stronger or whatever the words are that i get. Sometimes i ask why me and i know the force did this which again i am not to complain. I just idk i don't see how strong or worthy i am all the time which this is helping me with. Honestly i am frustrated i have to do this ip training first while my force only grows which i feel nervous about it sometimes. The force is here with me at least and being connected to people here or there really helps.
It's comforting to me and studying i have been doing reading the file on 12 teachings of the jedi. I found them interesting and tomorrow myabe yet no promises i may sign on to write some stuff on the first errand.
In response to the responses i got thank you brothers, i am glad to learn from you and your wisdom is helpful reminders. I learned from a friend of mine who studies the shadow aspect and even made a curriculum on force academy. Has helped me by teaching me ways and giving me info or articles about being okay with emotion. Not giving them a narrative and a new friend i made reminded me of the observer. Which brought that back and thoughts don't shape the identity which my thoughts were doing something. I felt off at times and words that i said sounded like my mind which haha it's a continued path of self mastery.
I love this and anyways going to sign off tonight faced a few things internally. Last night went fire spinning and overcame some energies i need to let go by trials so to speak. I had a dream about a lake with trees then a moon which later that morning i saw the lake/trees. The morning signifies a new change and the a lot of stuff of my past worked through. I definitely feel lighter and free in a new way which i went home the force taking care of me.
Crashed lol and woke up then did some practice flow having some inspiration for my submission for the lsa competition. It's a surprise and will be doing a release of it on youtube soon which a link will be provided please if you like give me a like and subscribe. Also nominate me if you wish and i just know this piece will be awesome. Tubular haha get it you tube makes it tubular..which some of you who are older then me will be haha that young whipper snapper doesn't understand tubular.
Swell i understand and ya dingus i know yet haha tubular just sounds cool which yes i add humor for i see some laughing or smiling. One of you is like santa clause with short white hair with blue eyes...not as old as santa yet a gentle wise soul with lots of wisdom to share. Wow beautiful light force you have and your saber is that of a green or blue or purple...no i am guessing nascien has the blue while octagon has a purple saber. The green is someone yet huh this is a fun challenge yet probably not right at first.
I just go off my intuition and yes asked the force too haha on one or maybe two of them as i focused in on their auras. Someone has a silver which has dark hair short with...oof anyways im curious to see how badly i did. Eh let me change my self talk " i am curious to see if i was close on a few for my learning experience."
*bows* Senshi Mike thank you so much brother i'll work on that meditation and let you know how that works. It's hard for me to stay in that mindset yet the meditation i will do for i know that will help me stay in that longer. Also in flow being empty and water will help for i get chatter which kills my flow. I have a saber and training saber which i found on the ground asking the tree if i could take it. Was on the ground yet belonged to nature so i asked which they willingly gave.
Then started to train from online tutorials and flowing which helped bring out a part of my warrior. More of a meditative warrior gaining some confidence again as i embrace some kicks or spins. Sometimes my expression is more warrior ish and inner peace is important to me. If i am not at peace i am off and there is a emotional journey there for sure.
Thoughts, people and things come then they go tis the flow of the force for nothing is permanent. Came back to mind when i said that onetime so yes again thank you i will go do that then hit the sack. This ends today's journal entry.

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There is no death there is the force
My vessel is a conduit and temple for what lies within that much be kept for a well maintained body is important. My body eventually will start to die and well technically it's already dying yet over time things will happen. Someday death will welcome me with open arms and my soul will go up to the first layer then second not sure about the third.
Trials there are and purification processes which then who knows if i go somewhere into another incarnation or cease to exist. I know i will leave behind a legacy and have a torch that was passed down to me that i will pass to maybe. Death is sad to me for i have lost close friends and can feel when someone is dying. I too grow sad and mostly feel sad for the families for they sometimes don't know that they are just in different forms.
I too used to be like them and now i feel my friends and passed ones are right next to me. I cry at times and know i can see/feel them near me some even guiding me which i am glad. Peace within i feel now and something clicked yesterday that
i am still processing. In my meditation flow and embracing emotion to tell a story letting it flow freely. Letting my passion and joy which i light up while using my grounding/breathing techniques. There was something found within and i always check with the force for well i've fallen to both extremes. I know the light side and love that the most while the dark side is full of lies. Sith is different what i mean is dark side is illusions that i know it too well.
When i taught spiritual ascension we were warned about the dark side and i hang my head at times. I was so strong for awhile and then got lost which thoughts rush to my head. Positive self talk is something i continuously work on and finding a balance between both yin yang within is fascinating. It's hard and my path is a rocky path..literally i tell no jokes or lies. I love the force and it's important to me i follow/listen for i just want to become better.
Some may say grey jedi which i know a lot use that as an excuse which no not calling anyone out. I just seen those people and idk i feel there is a lot of mystery to that reality. A realistic path to grey jedi and keepers of balance find balance within themselves. Which goes out to their reality and i resonate with both yin yang within choosing to integrate the light.
Even as a sith student for a bit i grew so brightly and idk i am using both to make my own code so to say. I am not sure how to explain it yet if you ever end up meeting maybe you can experience. For my ritual i let go of light dark more of just a path where many paths explored add a piece of knowledge. Then i can use that on my own path and just being in the flow as i am on a of self discovery still.
So an old me died and was released then i emerged so to speak from the ashes i rose. Phoenix is a close ally and spirit animal to me and the dragon to which a great guardian i will make. The wolf and a few more which today a giant koi fish spirit stared down at me. Red and with golden whiskers or dangly things near it's mouth the fire energy within while being in water was fascinating. Just stared and a frequency omitted a very wise energy within the force.
Not sure what it meant yet just googled it actually and resonate with what it said. Power, bravery and omg yes this legend of the koi fish becoming the dragon. So in the vision while i was just doing something i saw two fishes swimming in a pool afterwards. Now i look back on the vision and his golden tentril touches my forehead white energy comes out. The white energy i see or force emenates out which what once was dead springs up eh something about balance within. Catalyst of some sort and war then healing a flow like tai chi yet martial art more then tai chi. A move where fingers are pointed up directioing an energy forward stance arms in fend the monkey pose from tai chi. Fend the monkey is when you step back one arm forward extended the other behind like your fending something off. I don't know i learned it from a tai chi class i got to experience and "believe in yourself padawan."
A white lotus on a still beautiful lake with two big fishes like humongous then they jump out spraying water over me a bit arch of energy. So beautiful this is then the story of pollution...imbalance. So sad and there was nothing for it came so suddenly a deep cosmic loss. My force tingles and i grow sad then red lots of red oozing from the fish still as they have been speared by humanity. Even i was speared a peaceful spirit yet they didn't stop ouch i think i am going to go meditate then hit the hay.
https://tatring.com/tattoo-ideas-meani ... -Koi-Fish-Tattoo-Meanings That is the link i was drawn to
Sometimes i get visions and force talks to me through that i hope someone understands if not it's okay. I had not planned on this coming out in my journal and all i can do is be water right? I know this was meant to happen and nothing happens on accident.
https://youtu.be/IpaVVQfPNvA
Here is a flow video of my contact fire staff and may the fore be with you
So to finish up there is no death there is the force to me means. I am infinite and my soul never die for i am the force. Everything is the force which eventually must return back to the force.

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Greetings Aimee San Bows
Good work as always. However I would like your views and thoughts as to why you believe this statement quote.>I know the light side and love that the most while the dark side is full of lies. Sith is different what i mean is dark side is illusions that i know it too well. I am just curious is all as I have ventured into the Dark and found it to be quite a safe place. There is an assignment which some Teachers use 'The Cave' You have to take your fears and anxieties in there and deal with then one by one.. I use Taoism quite a bit it changes the way one thinks about certain things even to point of turn acient teachings from one thing into something else all based on what as been instilled in our minds. Religion is probably a really good example :) Have a peaceful day OSU !!! Bows

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https://www.inspirationdivination.com/earth-angels/
This link here describes what i am and people even see me at times calling me out on what i am which surprised me at first. I am a being of light love and by working through my inner darkness which is different then light side vs. dark side. I am glad the dark is safe for you as it should be once you work through the inner darkness. Thoughts change and becomes more of an ally.
I don't believe Mike, i have experienced both light side and dark side. I have found my side and chosen while continuing to master/understand yin/yang within me. My theory is one could even be a sith student and choose the light side. Which inspires self love, self care and self empowerment owing no one anything. One can create and embrace their passions which for myself as an artist is empowering. I am a grey jedi and have started to find something within. I make my own course and i create my own path while learning from many which add onto my path.
I will never pledge myself to the dark side and soon i have a class. I am picking up some karate, self defense classes and jui jitsu. It'll be good to pick up classes at my Shihans place for i miss his teachings.
I left for awhile and i am planning on heading down soon to class. Meditating i will do and lately been dealing with some external dark side energies. Training me while evolving me as i learn to be open while saying no to certain energies. At times it's hard and i just know this is part of my path that i can overcome anything. It's why when i asked the force the force still stepped aside. Which at first i thought force left me or i did something wrong which then i gained an awareness as fear crept in. This is some inner darkness i am learning to love on while not allowing energy vampires or my own thoughts to suck me dry so to say.
How i respond is important too and can't attack more of say no then point some of the energies in right direction. See people look at me at times and want what i have so with an understanding of that. I can react with kindness, mercy, compassion and at times i fail. At times i do well and through failure i learn. Um read the link i posted and you'll maybe understand me on a new level. A lot i went through while a lot i could have deeper into.
Thank you for challenging me on some thoughts and hope this answered the question. May the force be with you always! Blessings and positivity i wish unto you and have a fun rest of the new year! Next year is going to even awesomer yet anyways i live in the now lol.

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Nevermind on guardian training,
I will adjust my course to Consular for it's what the force wills in addition what i resonate with the most. I am more of a spiritual warrior anyways and we need more healers then warriors for we have enough already.
that is all and taking a vacation from the community for a bit for some furthered journeying.

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Saber meditation and saber flow as well as TSL/Lightspeed.
I am going to meet ups to practice and learn the saber dueling sport. I am nervous in the environment because two people who are bad energies that i had some interaction with go there. Energy is destabilizing and very negative which no one senses anything except me which they both gang up on me.
It's a trial in itself i guess and the second time i was ready to be around them. I had fun and they didn't end up showing up which yay thank the force. They have multiple infractions against me and yet they still don't get it. You never do a tarot reading on someone without their permission and it's kind of freaky honestly. Lots of projections happened to me from this crazy girl.
In ways i can see though myself in her which is why the force probably brought us together to even interact. I was projecting and running away from the darkness within. There is so much to discover in the dark that i am afraid i'll hurt someone which i was pretty rude one day. *lowers gaze and looks away*
I have to accept myself...all parts of myself and i really want to become a sith to just focus on that. Which i get stuck i this should for i feel bad for wanting to embrace me plus i am afraid of me. I have been doing it alone that i really need some help for i am drowning. I'll keep going for it's making me stronger and i'm realizing i am not weak! My will is very strong and what i once thought i was i am not! shedding the false self i am not evil and yet i can be yet i choose not to be.
I also am having issues trusting my dark side and anxiety major anxiety. i scream internally and feel so twisted and contorted by it.
I roar in pain and cry a primal response is drawn out back stiff legs muscles clenching up in back of my legs. Can't freeze up and no i will not have another anxiety attack. I feel bad and feel in order to be good i have to be a jedi yet i realized i'm not bad. Anyways i am focusing on this obstacle i've struggled with for a bit now. Ged testing and i don't owe anyone anything i owe myself to past this test. Then i can also go to this university which turning my passion into a career is important to me.
Then move and travel around becoming the entrepreneur artist who loves to do what i do. Make blogs and inspire through my life because i know it's how my story goes. Ego also gets high when feeling empowered and realizations they feel so damn good. i don't feel helpless or hopeless instead a calm as i stop fighting myself.
When i held this saber with red LED i felt like i was holding myself in my true nature. I love it and i'm going to go to this dance audition on the 8th of february. I sacrificed some plans i had from the 1st through 10th and studying for this ged test. I plan on attending the university at fall semester enrollment and i believe in myself that i can do this. practiced online today and really going to focus on this. While integrating the play mindset and exploring movement which allows me to live as well as thrive. Passion and work which paired together in a balanced productive way will help.
Been figuring out what i want in life and as a new era starts i'm glad i found my start. Faced some fears and darkness last night which that was a sinking dark hole of major acks yet must do it. I get to focus on me and feels great in a relieving way. Taming a new dragon i found and by the way dragons are interesting energies. I am the phoenix and dragon energy that is also cunning like the kitsune. Which that is hard to trust at times which i already said and tengu i resonate with. i remember this mountain covered by fog and a warrior took me in trained me in the ways of martial arts. It's why i am not drawn to most classes nowadays for they don't feel real to me anymore.
I think i found a class that pulls me in which kungfu should be fascinating to learn. Hope it's real and the Shifu seems to be authentic without the commercialized #OOPS# coming in. we learn rotating punches yet don't understand what they actually do. A person explained it to me and is a fellow Sith which i am borrowing his saber. A v3 initiate from ultra sabers with of course red which feels warm to me a familiar presence.
Darkness rises to meet light as much as light rises to meet darkness they dance this dance of balance acknowledging each other. Yet in harmony which often gets knocked out of balance yet can be realigned.
oh also i love this dance https://youtu.be/ZCfxHe5Tfx0 been watching creative stuffs.
darkness does not end and always more to find which sith to me is love. sith is passion and sith is asserting yourself and cutting out what i want in this world. Sith is focusing in and knowing it's okay. i respect life still, i am kind, I am flame that burns brighter, i am cosmic and interdimensional. I am okay with it and myself i let go and sacrifice any connections that don't serve my path to the authentic self. To my genuine path that is truly me as an artist who will change the world by simply being herself.
I can transmute energy and i can do so much more through which the force is guiding me and teaching me. *bows* time for me to go make dinner then choreograph this routine for a contemporary dance audition.
-MTFBWY

Posted on: 1/13 19:12
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Re: Aimee's Initiate Journal/Force Vision/There is emotion yet peace
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When i was a little girl i wanted to fly and had big dreams that someday i'd be famous. Get to wear a crown and dance while singing. I loved sparkly things and heels which yes i still like those things. Glitz and glam are fun yet have changed and evolved as well into a cosmic warrior princess. Who wields a light sword and has this light that will be a beacon of inspiration for others like myself.
With my story as human societal conditioning then poison via meds and random diagnostics that never really lead up to anything. Going from angel child to unahppy my dreams of flying i fell to the trees. I dreamed of escaping and getting away yet was eventually hauled back in chains. Those dreams of flying when i needed the most became less and i had dreams of losing my teeth with my gums bleeding.
It's not a hygeine thing though as a kid sometimes we can not always want to follow orders or brush ones teeth lol. i admit it and my teeth i value now i am grateful for the dream i describe i googled for i felt a pull to. I came to a website that had some explanations and this resonated with me
Did you mean: losing of one's teeth in a dream

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Common Stress Dream #1: Your Teeth Are Falling Out
Meaning: Dream Moods notes that dreams where you lose teeth are typically associated with feelings of powerlessness and loss of control
https://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/teeth-or-tooth-dreams
f you dream that your gums are bleeding, and you subsequently have a lot of blood, this indicates a loss of some type. Another indication of bleeding gums is that you feel there is a lack of support around you.
cut and copied from this website and what i found when googling this.
Parents can sometimes really #OOPS# up their children and while in wanting of love we can often be the consequence of their projections projecting themselves on the child. If i ever have children i will be better then my parents ever could and i am single. Enjoying figuring out i can do these things that they thought or said i'd never be able to do. It's not practical Aimee they'd say which i want to slap my parents at times which to omit such a response from me is a big thing.
Yet i get to move on and let all this pain of 24 years of my life go towards something beautiful at the end. Everyone has their story and i removed limiters that were put on me and i put on myself. I had this vision of returning to the water and going in without being afraid. Also awakening on a cosmic level and remembering atlantis too as i am close to the age of clarity.
Um there is a lot i deal with and work through yet i am here today i stand a child of the force. my heart beats i breathe i feel so alive. It's going to get some taking used to and i don't know what will happen after this experience. I will just see and this is just the beginning of my story.
I won't be looking back nor discussing any part with anyone yet i can say this "i look forward to growing and continuing my path." It's nice to know i am not alone and htat there are others who are willing to support me when i am shakey. It made me cry and tears of releif or joy... a bit of both to be honest. I'm very excited to be looking to see the sun rise and music with dancing. Sound healings fire performing and becoming myself or being who i am truly meant to be. What i am meant to do and the authentic self and find abundance of all kinds.
*Bows*
Warning i ran into karen ticknor...she is unsafe stay away from her group praxeum. Red corrupted her and the group is unsafe for new people. Or go in and be wary...i's worse then arkinnea and john honestly. People will try to corrupt and i speak out on behalf of safety in which groups i find safe. I did a live video saying the pros and cons of each group that i have experienced giving a thorough examination.
I would recommend force academy and here which totjf is a fun safe environment. Be wary of who you come in contact with and idk just be safe. Listen to your gut and now i let her go knowing it's in the forces hands. i let go of my worry for the padawans there and younglings stuck in karen's toxic teachings from this red moron. That is all yes i may sound mean yet truth is often hurtful at times.
If anything i say upsets you...it's not my intent yet if it does i am pushing your boundaries on something. You are being pointed out and i am saying bullshit which not literally.
I know my mentor will do the same for me and friends i know hold me accountable. i am not saying i am better or a know it all yet i will speak my mind. I don't honey coat and i speak in the language needed to be spoken to depending on the person. Which i am a sentinal in training which this is my path i resonated with i chose this. I sometimes am seen as a consular or guardian which yes i am a jack of all trades what can i say. I am not nice when need be yet i choose to be kind for some again need a situation. It's up to me to read and if i can't then hold back take a step back then choose how to act.
I will continue to learn the tenents sometime soon and finish my ip work currently i am going to a jedi gathering in myrtle beach. Then head to a burning man regional called loveburn any Jedi in florida wants to hang let me know. Coastal jedi east coast let me know maybe we can grab lunch or idk we will see.
I will start travelling sometime and am interested in choregoraphy for jedi films. Forms and demo teams that we can spread furthered knowledge with. Jedi meditation, workshops, and time serving which that will come into furthered detail later. If interested let me know which not asking for commitment just a raise of hands. I also want to meet some people who do fan films for i wants to be in one someday. While also learning how they are made to make some of my own too which would be sooo cool!
May the force be with you follow your gut instinct always be safe fam.

Posted on: 1/19 21:22
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